Bring it on 28!

So here are some crazy thoughts:

Kevin and I are putting together our home. WEIRD!  We just purchased all kinds of random items for the house including... our baby-making bed.  That was, well, weird to purchase together.  It is so weird to think that in less than 3 months I am going to live with a boy.

What is even CRAZIER is thinking that I could be pregnant in the next year.  I have NEVER thought of any of this before.  I guess I have been so caught up in the "honeymoon" stage of engagement that these thoughts never crossed my mind... until now.

Though I am 28, I get short of breath just thinking about the fact that I could have a baby relatively soon in my life.  Yikes.  Now, I would love to have children one day, but the thought that, that day may be soon... wow... well it leaves me a lil' dizzy.

Lets be clear though, the world knows we are waiting until August 5th. So don't get any ideas =)  I'm just sayin'.

So lets rewind a bit and talk about another crazy thing that will happen.  I'M GETTING MARRIED!  WHAT!?!?!?!

When I was a little girl, I honestly daydreamed about this day.  I even have to admit that in junior high, my friends and I cut up wedding magazines and made a journal of what we wanted our weddings to be like when it finally happened to us.  The dress I chose back then is hideous!  It is so gaudy and it has a train that is as long as the aisle you walk down.

Thank God that reality is so much better than my dreams.  I don't even know how to put into words how excited I am to marry Kevin.  I honestly cannot describe it.

People have been asking me lately if I am ready to get married.  How do I answer that?  Is anyone ever ready?  Am I?  I'll tell you what I know.  I know that I am still selfish.  I know that at times I still seek my own ways.  I know that I am stubborn.  I know that I have learned to fight and stand my ground in life because at one time, those characteristics were very crucial and necessary.  I know I am slightly a perfectionist.  I don't see the point in doing something unless you are going to do it right and do it the best way possible.

I also know I am in love with a man who makes me want to die to myself.  He loves in such a compassionate way that I don't want to seek my own way; I want to look out for him.  He shows me a whole different side of love that makes me want to surrender my stubborn pride because loving him is so much better than being right or getting my way.

So am I ready to get married?  The answer is probably no.  I'm not ready because of all the reasons I mentioned earlier.  But when you put Kevin into the equation, the whole scenario changes.  Am I ready to marry Kevin?  HECK YES!  I am ready to marry Kevin because Kevin is the most courageous, selfless, pure-hearted, Christ-led man that I have ever met, and he inspires me to love in ways I have never known before.

I'm getting married folks!  Mark your calendars and bring your dancin' shoes because we're gonna celebrate!